I don't know why I'm writing this... but it seems right in some sort of way.  Like it's a public apology for being such an idiot.  

You see, in the honor of transparency, brought to my attention by Mr. Ryan Michael Hildebrand's latest blog (which everyone should check out), I want to share this blog as a confession of my childishness and lack of spiritual maturity.

Here's the deal: I'm not all that great.  I'm actually pretty un-amazing.

I am a HUGE JACKASS.  

I am loud and obnoxious & annoying.  

I am way too competitive and when I don't win I pout.  

I am often cocky and prideful. The ironic thing is that everything I am is only because God and others have poured into me.  

I, too, have a gripping addiction to lust. I hate being alone because it is easier to hide from the Lord and not face your temptations head on when you are distracted by lots of people.

I put way too much into what others think about me.

I really like attention... especially from females. It makes me kind of awkward.

So here's the count...

I am amazingly selfish, amazingly prideful, amazingly lustful, amazingly immature, and amazingly jackassy. 

But amazingly enough, G O D desires me & loves me.  Now THAT is amazing grace.